I guess I realize what he's saying now . I do have a bit of growing up to do .
I shoouldn't have said those things about Lauren, even though I still think and feel them . no, I'm not takign them back or apologizing to her because there's no point in apologizing for your own feelings, but I do apologize for my immaturity in posting a journal about all the things I disliked about her . I do believe, however, that I should think before I speak . I just get so angry and passionate about what I feel that I blog about it without a second thought . I'm not saying I care about Lauren's feelings because I really don't, but I shouldn't say what's in my heart unless I think people will actually care .

Nevertheless, I will not continue to pursue a friendship with Lauren, but neither will I acknowledge her existence any longer . As in, I won't say anything on this site about her anymore . I'admit my mistake, but I don't take back the things I said . They've already been said, so what the fuck ? So I apologize and yet I don't . I guess you're just gonna have to be happy with that . -shrugs-